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艺术与爱情$ZT$

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世间本没有永恒的欢笑，只有去爱世界才多彩，也坚信付出就不会孤独，愿我们尝试在爱中学会宽恕，分享爱与被爱的幸福！

保罗说：“无论我说什么，信什么或做什么，若没有爱，我便一无所有。”

得雷莎修女说：“重要的不是你做了什么事，而是你为这事付出多少爱。”

圣经说：“让爱成为你最大的目标。”

我说：“此刻去爱，真心对待！”

滚滚长江东逝水，浪花淘尽英雄。

是非成败转头空。

青山依旧在，几度夕阳红。

白发渔樵江渚上，惯看秋月春风。

一壶浊酒喜相逢。古今多少事，都付笑谈中。

                     ——调寄临江仙

第一回：平定家中事，建立汗王室

话说公元二零零五年，十二月份正是T城寒冬料峭时，且说Chinatown里有户布衣人家，先看那男主人----为人率真，个性爽直，虽不是温儒文雅之士，倒也大度敦厚；虽称不上文学青年，可也懂兵法，好史书；虽仅写过一封家书，倒也算得上词理纵横，文笔灿烂，颇有司马迁之风格（因他只读史记）；虽有点大男子主义，可也刷锅，洗碗，炒菜。在这个物欲横流，日益噪杂的社会，此种人颇得其妻赏识。再说其妻某氏虽不懂四书五经倒也知书达理，爽快大方；虽时而野蛮刁钻，可也算得上活泼开朗，交友甚广；虽貌似小家碧玉，行事为人却也深明大义，优雅从容；虽有点小女子主义，可也刷锅，洗碗，炒菜；平日里倒也颇受其夫之宠爱。这样的平常人家终逃不过俗事之扰，就在双方“公事缠身”二零零五十二月期末考试前的一个星期，为了鸡毛蒜皮之事争吵不休，相持不下。冷眉横目的持续了二夜三天，其妻渐觉体力不支，又有大考在即，提出议和一事，遂曰：“请指点拙妾该怎做不惹相公生气？”答曰：“尊我为王”。夫乃刘邦之本家故取一谐音称为“汗王”。欲知汗王表现如何，且听下回分解。

第二回：圣明开国主，册封诸地侯

自汗王登基以来，，励精图“家”（注意不是“国　”字），勤求民意，四海义治，“一”民乐业（注意不是“万”字，因管辖范围有限），坐稳了家里的江山社稷，汗王陛下果然赐其糙糠之妻为“贵妃娘娘”平日里训话时，总给贵妃无限美好的期盼，憧憬：“只要爱妃不好高骛远，扎扎实实地从基层宫娥做起，练好了低眉顺眼功，这皇后位份早晚还不就是爱妃你的。”“宫里宫外只需做到三不――不柳眉怒目，不咆哮公堂，不违抗亡命，朕的信用卡尽管用”。看在汗王陛下洗碗又烧菜，汗流满面的帅劲上，功课繁忙的贵妃娘娘懒得计较，只要不太过分，一切听侯王命。且看这贵妃娘娘----温柔体贴，贤良淑德哪是个甜言蜜语之人，不过倒也左一个“汗王陛下”，右一个“皇上圣明”，因此自建立汗室以来家庭生活算是和睦共处，欣欣向荣。几个月的帝王坐下来，虽apartment都没换，汗王倒也算得上有鸿鹄之志，日日琢磨着拓展疆土。只见他一天到晚的狂赞汉代伟大的政治家晁错，论唐代的那个《长短经》卷九：“夫将者，国之辅也，人之司命也。故曰：将不知兵，以其主与敌也；君不择将，以其国与敌也。将既知兵，主既择将，天子居正殿而召之。”于是乎，大“汗”王朝陛下随即招兵买马，德布四方，仁及万物，分封诸侯，真是一人得道，全校升天，无需册封大礼几个同一师门的科大帅哥均都有个不错的威武头衔：香帅为护国大将军，如哥为安国大将军，晖哥为娱国大将军。自古以来封侯分地，可怜这几位翩翩公子，别说名山大川，风水宝地，连半亩小田，一两俸禄都没有。且说那个明眸善睐的独臂神尼，虽因车祸一周未能沐浴，却因嘴巴奇甜，逢人都能赞几句，立马成了“香香公主”。再看那个极有奉献精神的西湖奇女子，身出医学世家，颇懂吃喝养生美颜之道，自荐为“大长今”，我主汗王陛下不愧开国贤明之君即刻口谕恩准，每次电话之中都念念不忘“长今辛苦”。　可怜长今之夫，由于不懂宫廷戏，总搞不明白大家说话的内容，被“香香公主”封为兵卒甲。可他老人家天性纯真直至，那懂得宫廷之险象环生，稀里糊涂中被认为“造次”，在一次贵妃娘娘和香香公主的通话中被贬为“兵卒丙”。不过大长今之夫决不是凡人，最近迷上了好几种乐器，潜心钻研乐理，现一心只练吉他。话说长今山庄养病的香香公主，目睹了此兵卒丙勤学苦练深为感动，决心学习此人的务实精神，随埋头写博士论文。事以至此，贵妃娘娘也从长计议，说不定将来某日拜师学艺，伯牙子期那厮是个不错的人选，算不清连升几级大长今之夫青云直上封为宫廷一级乐师。由于大长今先人后己，总给人留下不错的印象，平素里深得皇上信任。那天大长今心情不错，给陛下荐了个贤人，于是乎我们转型中的玲姐姐不废吹灰之力落得个“小长今”之美名，众人为此不满，电话投诉，差点激起群愤这是后话，凭良心说她做化学实验肯定比饭菜更漂亮，真是夫随妻贵，且说大艺术家小长今之夫恍惚中就被众人尊称为齐大将军。分封之乱可谓开创了登封造极之先河，欲知汗室江山如何，且待有空再写！

02.25.2006
看看所有的syllabus下周竟然没有考试，心情真是轻松的不知道
咋玩好，前天看了king kong，昨天聊了聊天，今天头晕了一个
上午，傻傻的啥也不想做。注定本周六是写不出下周一要交的
那个东西了，心情就像窗外的绵绵细雨，纷乱纷乱的，怎么想，
思想上都蹦不出个火花来。干脆潇洒一点，撒手不管了，
明天再说吧，反正最后一刻总能思绪如潮的一气呵成。
 
花姐姐到远方散心去了，她周三出游邀我同去，其实还是蛮冲动
想去滑雪的，可个人最重要的two components of consumption
（time and money）,偶都没有只好作罢。也不知道Virginia 
的大风大雪把她给怎么着了，昨天打她电话，死不通，
心中默默祈祷，她滑雪时可别摔着胳膊腿呀。
 
给几个朋友打电话都不在，想去U-MALL可细一想划不来，
在这个破地方发现自己的size太难了，每次逛回来怪空虚得，
不像深圳，上海很多地方买不到试都试的蛮爽，
这些日子够辛苦了，可不想冲到商店里的儿童区受刺激。
 
晚上放着一堆的正经事不做，竟然又看电影，欣赏了
《A very long engagement》，那个美丽且又有恒心的
女主角坚信他所爱的人，那个能感觉她心跳像摩尔斯电码一
样的人，那个曾写下三个MMM，给她讲信天翁的人，
如果真在战争中死去，她肯定会有预感，但直觉告诉她：
他没有死......她不放弃最后一线希望并坚信她能找到他。
在钢刀划过心坎的艰难找寻后，她终于有了“米约之旅”，
阳光，天空，整个大自然伴随着她。她幸福因为她要去
看完全失忆的他。作为一个女人，她尽力地装扮了自己：
白色显得清新，配合环境的红色唇彩，修理过的双眉，
最重要的是不要用黑色睫毛膏，她知道要是哭了的话
会是什么样子。可以想象在花园里甜美的空气中，
在美丽的日光下，她会以怎样的心情，满含热泪的
注视着他，注视着他，注视着他……
 
很多电影在试图告诉人们爱是什么，但我们究竟要看多少
部movie才能找到爱的真谛呢？还记得第一次在《圣经》
上读到爱的定义就彻底被shock了，然后思考了
很久，很久，很久……
 
哥林多前书１３章４－８节：
爱是恒久忍耐，又有恩慈，爱是不嫉妒；爱是不自夸，
不张狂，不做害羞的事，不求自己的益处，不轻易发怒，
不计算人的恶，不喜欢不义，只喜欢真理，凡事包容，
凡事相信，凡事盼望，凡事忍耐，爱是永不止息。
 
谁有这样的爱或这样爱过你的爱人？请举手！
你我究竟做过了几条？或第几条？
 

It all started for me on Jan 13, 19xx, in   , a small city of the middle China. As a little girl, Even though I had a very happy family, it is very common that children live with their grandparents in China. So I was enjoying life as I lived with my grandma during my whole childhood. Although grandma suffered a lot pain since my grandpa died in the World WarII, she is always a friendly person with a kind heart to others. For me, her little granddaughter, she especially showed more love than anyone else did, but as I grew up,  I had three timesto leave her with a heavy heart.

When I was seventeen, I went to a school, which is about ?00 miles away from my hometown, so I had to leave my grandma. I still remember some details about her before I left. Throughout the entire day, grandma seemed very busy at home, but I had no time to care what she was busy doing. In that moment, I was in a great mood because I would leave home first time as a big person. I almost stayed all day with my good friends to share what I dreamed about for my journey and school. In the evening, when I arrived home, our simple table was set with best food. All dishes were my favorites: fish, chicken, special soup, and a wonderful Chinese salad; however, I found grandma in kitchen. She still prepared another delicious meal for the next morning. After dinner, grandma began to check my packages and gave me a lot of stuff such as some commodities, medicines, etc. that I thought I don’t need. Before I slept, she still was doing something. I really didn’t know when she went to bed that night.

The next morning, I said “Goodbye” to my family at the bus station.

"Bye-bye" Dad and Mom replied and said "Take care, girl! Good luck, girl!

“Take care of yourself! Take care! Take care of yourself!” Grandma repeatedly said to me.

I didn’t remember how many times she said this since she knew I have to leave home. After the bus moved, she was running along until the bus run to fast. It was September 1996, and she was seventy-three. At that moment, I had a big lump in my throat, and also there were some tears in my eyes.

However, three years later, May 1999, I graduated from school. I went back to my home and spent two months with my family. Even though grandma knew I would leave her and try to find a good job in other cities, she was still immersed in reunion atmosphere. Later on, I got a job offer from a big company, in Shenzhen, located in south of China. Without any hesitation, I decided to go to the beautiful, modern city, which is more away from my hometown at least ?000 miles. At first, grandma was very glad for me to get the job, but as farewell day came closer, she seemed to have a heavy heart. I didn’t know what to do for my dear grandma in the next few days. I promised I will call her every weekend and go back home at least once a year. Finally, the good-bye day came.

It was a beautiful day in July 1999. I brought my packages and said "bye-bye" again to my family in the same bus station. 

"Take care of yourself! Hope you like your job! Good luck, honey!..." Dad and Mom said those sincere words with earnest wishes.

“Don't forget come back, I will miss you! I will miss you!” Grandma said to me this time.

“I will” I answered with a double meaning, I will come back home, and I will miss her.

She was so old that she couldn’t run along side the bus as she had done three years ago. But through the bus mirror, I caught sight of her. I was greatly assured her eyes followed the bus, which brought her love away until it disappeared beyond her sight.

Now, tears fill my eyes again when I remember this at the moment. I never thought I would leave home further away than this time until the day my husband got offers from the United States of America.

In March 2002, when my husband got offers with full scholarship from several American universities, I was so glad. We decided to come over to the USA and continue our studies. When I told my family the news on the phone, Dad and Mom was very glad for us. But when grandma heard about this, she immediately got angry and questioned “why do you choose so far away?” It was a difficult phone call, but I convinced her. In 2003, we finished all admission procedures and went back to my hometown from Shenzhen. After short reunion with my family, I had to leave home again. 

I never forget the day that I left home was June 18, 2003. Because grandma was eighty years old, her health was not very good, and she couldn't go to the bus station. We had a farewell at home.

       “Take care, Grandma! Please wait for me to come back!” We hugged and cried together.

After a while, I want to leave, but I found that she bit her lower lip to keep it from trembling; then tears filled her eyes and started rolling down her cheeks. I cried out, and since that time, I had no courage to look her in the eyes again before I left China, because they were filled with all sadness.

Then, I hugged her tightly, and she said "oh, my gril, oh, my little girl, when will you come back? when will you come back?", Listening in her old, trembling voice, my heart was being broken, and I answered “I will come back soon, as soon as possible; please wait for me! Grandma, Please...”

So far, I can’t go back to china to visit my family and enjoy life together with my grandma. She always takes care of everything for me, but I never give back anything to her.

There are three times that I left her behind with a  heavy heart for my future. Whenever I think of this, I cannot help but feel sad. I am so guilty and dilemmatic; I think I am a selfish person to hurt the one, who always loves me very much and lets me go anywhere for a better life, even though my leaving broke her heart. I clearly know she misses me every moment more than I do.

Today, as I live on the other side of the Pacific Ocean, I miss her very much and pray piously again for my family and my dear grandma…… 

It is a well-known fact that men and women are totally different. None of us would argue that men and women are physically different. Weight, shape, size and anatomy are not political opinions but rather tangible and easily measured. Furthermore, men and women have different appearances. "Unvarying exterior" is a character of most men. They don’t understand what different styles are. Single hair style may be kept by them day after day, and they may wear the same colors year after year. On the other hand, for most women, they change their styles frequently with different dresses and colors for fun and pleasure. It cannot be denied that most women naturally understand color better and know how to use it to make them special and different every day.

 The lifestyle is another obvious difference between men and women. My classmate, Malcolm has a classic word: “men live in the earth, but women live in malls.” This is true to most of women who are “bore to shop”. For example, a couple may have totally different weekend plans. For the husband, he would like to play football in a nice weekend afternoon. But to the wife, nothing is more attractive than buying some on sale in a wonderful weekend shopping spree. Another example, when most men watch TV, they usually focus on sport channels, while women are interested in love-story movies.

 In addition, men and women have different self-actualizations. “How much money can I earn?” is always a hot topic to men; their egos are based on money and careers. Most men are wild about power and have stronger desires to control everything. For most women, their successes directly come from their families or their positions in the business world. In fact for some women, a happy family and lovely children can fulfill their ideals and desires.

Still, there are some other differences between men and women, such as their thinking, emotions, sensitivities, performances, behaviors and roles of their lives etc…

很久没有用中文写过任何东西了。今天竟然写了这封信，是关于我信仰上的，拿来分享，如果你看到，并愿分享请留言！

谢谢你用经文给我的回答。

其实，让我在两者之间选，答案和你一样。因为我也享受被造的快乐，并且体会到生命中的美好与爱----这爱是无限的，是来自于神的。

从某些方面来说，我基本上是健康的。从“听觉”上，我为能听到各样的声音感谢神，这是幸福的，可以用耳朵来准确的判断这声音是优美的，深沉的，愉悦的，亦或是噪杂的……“视觉“上，我为能享受蓝天白云，花草树木，日月星辰的创造之美而感谢神。再者，还可以通过“思想”用身心去感受，体会这一切带给我精神上的东东——无论是美好的还是犹豫的….当然，我在自己生命中饱尝了很多的恩典与爱，这足以让我不住地感谢。很多时候感谢神为这一刻的呼吸，活着！与此同时，在我心里也有一些没名的忧伤，因为我知道这个世界上很多人不能像我一样正常的“活”着。不用一一列举你也明白，这个世界上有身体和精神缺陷的人太多。我最不能接受的就是为啥要有“植物人”？——不能生，不能死，生不如死。

现实生活中每天都有不幸发生，不愿面对的事情上演。那天，我在文学城上看了一位老人的悲惨故事（故事梗概你已知晓，不再累述），实际上当你打开网页，类似这样的故事有很多）我忍不住哭了（实际上我哭过很多回为了很多相似的故事）。我看到了他们的孤苦与无助，以及我们都不能否认的事实——今天，在世上（离我们或远或近），有很多人正在可怜的光景中挣扎，并且就这样被漩涡淹没了，（比如这个被饿死的老奶奶）难道这是注定的吗？为什么他们没有挣脱出来呢？一想到这样的情形我就忍不住地问：为什么？我知道我不配问神，因为我是一个罪人。可是在心底，我没有办法用平和的眼光看这个世界上的苦难。可能很多人会说每个人的人生各不相同，不同剧本同时上演各样故事，世界才会突出精彩，就像色彩一样：五彩斑斓，光怪陆奇才突出颜色之“美”。如果人生一定要有悲剧的话，那么，难道就注定要牺牲某些人去做悲剧的主角吗？我知道自己的软弱，需要信心，可是有时候掉在这个牛角尖里怎么也出不来。是我在灵性上没有好好的追求吧，总觉得自己就像一个离开了葡萄树的枝子——死不过去，活不新鲜。

我同意你说的：“不论其他人过着怎样看上去更好的生活，仍然感谢神。因为比虚空要好,更何况我们有永恒的盼望”。感谢神，我慢慢的学会祝福别人有更美的生活，并开始心安理得的接受我没有的，且珍惜和感谢我拥有的！而今，我遇到的问题是“不知如何正确的面对苦难”——无论是别人的，还是自己的，相干的或不相干的（似乎有点无事生非，自讨苦吃）。虽然我明明知道人生的路途不可能花香常伴，常晴无雨，可一看到悲惨的事，依旧就无法规避心底的哀伤。我知道上帝是完美的，所以问题应在我自己身上。或许某些问题本身根本就没有答案，需要自己慢慢的悟出来吧。实际上，我期望时时刻刻与神同在，改变自己，并精力充沛，善知乐趣的过好每一天！

你说“在苦难中的人，神有神的计划。我们可以求神使用我们。我们必须先破碎自己，舍己，才能被神使用”——谈到破碎自己和舍己真的很惭愧，就不多提了。总之，谢谢你如此用心的记住我那天的问题并你今天信中的鼓舞。

Some wonderful sentences about

Youth

青春不是年华，而是心境；青春不是桃面、丹唇、柔膝，而是深沉的意志、恢宏的想象、炽热的感情；青春是生命的深泉在涌流。
Youth is not a time of life, it is a state of mind, it is not a matter of rosy cheeks, red lips and supple knees. It is a matter of the will, a quality of the imagination, a vigor of the emotions, it is the freshness of the deep spring of life.

青春气贯长虹，勇锐盖过怯弱，进取压倒苟安。如此锐气，二十后生有之，六旬男子则更多见。年岁有加，并非垂老；理想丢弃，方堕暮年。
Youth means a temperamental predominance of courage over timidity, of the appetite for adventure over the love of ease. This often exits in a man of 60, more than a boy of 20. Nobody grows merely by the number of years, we grow old by deserting our ideas.

岁月悠悠，衰微只及肌肤；热忱抛却，颓唐必至灵魂。忧烦、惶恐、丧失自信，定使心灵扭曲，意气如灰。
Years may wrinkle the skin, but to give up enthusiasm wrinkles the soul. Worry, fear, self-distrust bows the heart and turns the spirit back to dust.

无论年届花甲，抑或二八芳龄，心中皆有生命之欢乐，奇迹之诱惑，孩童般天真久盛不衰。人人心中皆有一台天线，只要你从天上人间接受美好、希望、欢乐、勇气和力量的信号，你就青春永驻，风华常存。
Whether 60 or 16, there is in every human being’s heart the lure of wonders, the unfailing childlike appetite of what’s next and the joy of the game of living. In the center of your heart and my heart there is a wireless station: so long as it receives messages of beauty, hope, cheer, courage and power from men and from infinite, so long as you are young.

一旦天线倒塌，锐气便被冰雪覆盖，玩世不恭、自暴自弃油然而生，即使年方二十，实已垂垂老矣；然则只要竖起天线，捕捉乐观的信号，你就有望在八十高龄告别尘寰时仍觉年轻。
When the aerials are down, and your spirit is covered with the snows of cynicism and the ice of pessimism, then you’ve grown old, even at 20, but as long as your aerials are up, to catch waves of optimism, there’s hope you may die young at 80.